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Reflecting On A Lifetime of Love for the Earth

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Reflecting On A Lifetime of Love for the Earth October 2020. I was finishing my second masters dissertation. I had just done my second masters degree in a row - I had done two in two years. I was so tired. I would sit down to work and then cry and then work. I was physically shaking for the last six weeks of that dissertation  But it was beautifully done and I got such a high mark and it was so beautifully organised And all I could think about was my love for the earth. As that’s why I did it all. And that’s why I do it all. And that’s why I do everything I do. I fell in love with the earth as a little girl. I danced barefoot on the earth.  I have pictures of me hugging trees as a child. I have pictures of me climbing into trees as a child. I climbed fir trees. I have pictures of me hugging trees as an adult too. I talked to the sheep as a child. But as an adult I sung to the cows. During Covid to keep them all company. I have sung to deer too. I sang once to an empty field an...

Why I Love Water So Much

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Why I Love Water So Much When I was nearly fourteen and nearly fifteen I ended up at the same disused hydroelectric dam deep in the French mountains twice. I think by then it was just a reservoir. I stood on the wall of rocks and I felt powerful for the first time in adolescence. I didn’t know what power was. But there on that mountainous wall I found it. I did a project on those lakes and forgot about them. And then at 26 I needed to heal. I was confined to my bed for the whole of January 2021 with a leg injury. Completely insomniac and nocturnal I would lie in bed all night waiting for my family to bring my food, lonely and watching movies, trying to read books that I couldn’t focus on.  And then I began to remember the lakes.  I found a friend’s old Facebook and suddenly those lakes came back to me. As I wrote about them in my Buddha notebook, I began to heal. I went back into the world and embarked on my career in renewable energy and I never forgot those lakes. Two years ...

I like to fly, I build AI

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I like to fly, I build AI There is nothing I love more in the world than to build artificial intelligence. Nothing makes me happier in my life than the fact that I work in an AI team. I started dreaming about working in utilities AI last January and I thought it would take 10-20 years. It took three months. Every day I can’t believe how lucky I am. This feels like some kind of a greatest gift in the world. I often think of Alan Turing. I don’t think that I could’ve done this without the kind of inspiration that he gives me. I know it’s time for me to get organised again. I had a bit of a crash after the probation.  I got a lot done and I built a beautiful dashboard. I was really held by the fact that I had a project with a single focus. This really saved me, I feel. Jumping around projects would’ve been a bit too much following the probation crash. But here I am now. I’m going back to the AnswerBot. Nothing made me feel more alive again than it did when I got back to the AnswerBot ...

We’ll Make The Mundane… A Masterpiece

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We’ll Make The Mundane… A Masterpiece I’m obsessed with Alex Warren at the moment so I may be quoting him a lot. I just want to say. I want to tell you. How beautiful you are and how beautiful each and every moment is. And how the only ever miracle that is ever going to happen is NOW. How the moment… the now is the most beautiful moment. And there is never going to be a more beautiful moment than this one. Here.  Now. I don’t know how to communicate my joy with people. I don’t know how to share my exuberant joy with people. I know that joy doesn’t have to be ecstatic and loud like mine. Joy can be quiet and serene. And still. And it’s just as beautiful. But I am just a very ecstatic dancer… and how we dance is how we live, our lives. I wish I had some tips but I have no tips. I just want to tell you that it is all so beautiful. To dance. To write.  To write code. To push code. To make friends with everyone everywhere you go. To listen to the sounds of the night The night is so...

Self-Study: What is Kubernetes? - Part 1

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Self-Study: What is Kubernetes? - Part 1 Fun fact. I once had a mentor at an old job who decided he wanted to teach me Kubernetes. Then my manager put his foot down. No more Kubernetes, he said! I needed to learn more urgent and relevant stuff. So I was barred from learning Kubernetes. To this day I haven't recovered from it. But here I am now. I finally have the opportunity to learn again. What is Kubernetes? Okay so I read the definition in the course and I understood absolutely nothing. Whoops - there were lots of key words but I understood almost none of them. It is something to do with automating deployment. Ah okay. Looks like the definition in the course is the same as on the official website. So at least I know it's not confidential. Here's what it says: "Kubernetes is a portable, extensible, open source platform For managing containerized workloads and services that facilitates both declarative configuration and automation. "It has a large, rapidly growin...

St Paul’s Cathedral

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St Paul’s Cathedral I’m in a hotel near St Paul’s. St Paul’s represents everything to me. I first heard “So Long London” by Taylor Swift last year when it came out and I was in my Brighton office a day or so after first hearing it and I began to loop it constantly. The bells at the beginning imitated the sound of St Paul’s. (I passed my probation the day after the last time I spent a night by St. Paul’s. And I’m not so surprised because that song fuelled so much of my passion and motivation for the best part of a whole year). I had NEVER heard anything like it before. Musically, I have been playing and writing music all my life. And that final chorus just throws me. My heart just skips a beat every single time. So what to say then.  All of the nights when I got a too-late train back from London and thought desperately about how to become a better software engineer? All of those late nights spent studying. I don’t think they’re the best way forward anymore. Now I value rest above ev...

Predictive Maintenance

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Predictive Maintenance  Okay so I have written about predictive maintenance quite a lot actually - both in water and quite a lot in renewable energy especially before joining kraken. The way it all happened was like some kind of a miracle beyond my wildest imaginings tbh - one minute I was researching AI in renewable energy and knowing it was my life purpose. Three months later I was hired to an AI project and then got put in an AI team. It still blows my mind really - honestly. This is such a beautiful example of how the universe works. If you do something out of love but like really really out of love then everything will work out for you. You will not be able to believe the miracles in your life. I never planned to work in AI. But it seems that AI wanted me there. More importantly I think that utilities and water and renewable energy really wanted me there. This is what I argued every week during my meetings. Because when I turned 30 I felt that the pylons were happy. That they ...