St Paul’s Cathedral

I’m in a hotel near St Paul’s. St Paul’s represents everything to me.

I first heard “So Long London” by Taylor Swift last year when it came out and I was in my Brighton office a day or so after first hearing it and I began to loop it constantly. The bells at the beginning imitated the sound of St Paul’s. (I passed my probation the day after the last time I spent a night by St. Paul’s. And I’m not so surprised because that song fuelled so much of my passion and motivation for the best part of a whole year). I had NEVER heard anything like it before. Musically, I have been playing and writing music all my life. And that final chorus just throws me.

My heart just skips a beat every single time.

So what to say then. 

All of the nights when I got a too-late train back from London and thought desperately about how to become a better software engineer? All of those late nights spent studying. I don’t think they’re the best way forward anymore. Now I value rest above everything. 

Now I value self care above everything.

Because I don’t think fulfilling my life purpose looks like working 24/7. I think fulfilling my life purpose looks like dancing. When I dance I have the breakthroughs that I need to have around water tech. I don’t know how else it looks. Travelling. Taking it easy maybe. Taking enough time to rest. It’s going to be hard finding a balance. After the insanity of 2024. And after the exhaustion of the last month or so. How do I find a balance. 

How can I do this.

How can I deliver my purpose to the world while also taking care of myself. Thank you xxx

Thank you