Susanna Codes

Nature: the ultimate neurodivergent sensory soother  Work got me a lava lamp for my new local office. I’ve never been so grateful in my life. I’ve had it for just one day. It was a tough day. By looking at the lava lamp at the end of it and seeing how it calmed me down  I realised that they had made a great investment. They did some other incredible things for me too - I have a set of drawers (my space is tidy for the first time in my life), I have a blanket (self soothing/get cold easily/if I have had a seizure in the last few days and need to rest on a break etc.) I feel really lucky to be supported by this. I have also been supported to do an advanced meditation course As a part of mental wellbeing and growth in my role etc. I have never felt so supported by an employer in my life. I have promised to give a talk to my department when it is done. If you’d like to be invited then give me a shout! Today I went to the beach. It’s a long walk because I live by the port. So to ge...

The Beauty and the Beast When I entered this industry three years ago. I thought it was a level playing field. It is not a level playing field. As a woman you will have to fight harder to get your voice heard and to get taken seriously and even just to have people estimate your technical skills correctly. But I’m not nice. Mistake me as being nice at your peril. I am kind. I am loving. But I am here to work hard. I am here to fulfil my passion and my destiny and my dreams Expect me to shield my brilliance from you At your own risk For I will never ever apologise for being brilliant I will never ever compromise on speaking positively about myself  I will never compromise on loving myself I love myself I will never ever compromise on loving myself For it is only when we love ourselves That we can truly love others Thank you 

Reconnecting with the lands of where I am from  I am from Luxembourg. I am so proud to be from Luxembourg. I am not from the banks and the designer shops although man I do love the airport there. I am from the forests and the villages. I am from the hills and the secret trees. I am from the mountains.  I am from the wind turbines. I am from the secret streams that you would find in the forest. I am from the mysterious pathways in the woods that only I know  I am from the castles that you would have to drive a certain way to find I am from the woods. I am from deep within the woods I am from where the green light of love filters through the trees I am from where you can watch the sunset between two trees while leaning on another tree I am from  I am from  I am from where there are secret white trees in the forest  I do everything I do because I love the environment I love the planet Do you? I love the Earth  I am the Earth  Back home, in Luxembourg...

I’M MARRIED TO THE HUSTLE Look down on me, and you may not be looking down for long Put me down and you have put down the wrong woman I eat motivation for breakfast I am locked in Susanna 2.0 I love what I do. I have given everything to do it I overcome 100 invisible barriers to walk through the office door every day I have already won in every possible way just by making it this far I am amazing I work so hard I focus  I organise my time I prioritise I hustle If you want to judge me by my rank That only reflects on you I don’t know anyone who tries harder than me Look down on me and you may not be looking down for too long Put me down and you may be putting down the wrong woman No woman should ever be put down  Anyway  I wrote my own job description it looks great my managers are really happy with me that I have done it thank you 💞❤️‍🔥🪷💖💗🪻🌹💕❤️❤️‍🔥💕🩷💞

Chimera  Sometimes along your path as a software engineer you will meet people who will want to put you down.  Is it because you dare to have the nerve to be a woman in software engineering  Is it because they feel threatened by you  I don't know  I don't know  I don't know these things  I don't know why  I do know the following things  I merged 3 PRs in one day on Thursday  I have started coming in at 9 am every day to read the docs - my old pattern was more like 9.45-5.45 but having 45 minutes at the start of the day every day to read docs is amazing  I was hospitalised on Monday night from a seizure  I was told in no uncertain terms to take Tuesday off to recover  I came back in on Wednesday and finished a little sooner  By Thursday I was back and kicking and raised 3 PRs in one day  And then I went to Martial Arts  And today I have read so much React docs and have written up my own job description as wel...

Man shall not live by software engineering alone There was a time when I only really wanted to be an engineer. I still want this more than anything. But it’s not enough. I want to be a dancer. I missed my last two dance classes and I was absolutely heartbroken. I will still have to see about the next one. I have been really unwell this week and I am recovering. But I know it’s the end. It’s almost the end of my seizures. How do you recover from an unrecoverable illness. The answer is you need a miracle BRO I AM in the business of attracting miracles I am in the business of attracting miracles I am in the business of attracting miracles I am in the business of attracting miracles “Be realistic. Expect a miracle.” Be realistic  Expect a miracle Finding software engineering was a miracle that turned my whole beautiful life upside down I never imagined that I could love anything so much Why stop at one miracle Bro why stop at two or three Why stop at a hundred or a million or even at a...