The Angels Up In The Clouds Are Jealous Of How Much I Love Coding

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The Angels Up In The Clouds Are Jealous Of How Much I Love Coding

Yep. I finally felt it again today. I sat down to work on some real AI code. I’ve been building a dashboard for some AI experiments but putting my hands back into the code for our tests for an AI model. I finally felt it again. I felt home. I am back home where I belong. The wind farms spoke to me again on the way home too. It’s been months since I felt them like I did today. What did I do? I danced for 3 hours yesterday. I let myself wane. Like the moon. Over the last few months. I let myself crash.

I let my enthusiasm crash like the waves on the rocks. Like the waves on the shore. 

Knowing it would come back again one day. I let myself work fast. I let myself work slow. Knowing it would balance out. I let myself write my tech talk in working hours so I wouldn’t exhaust myself even further. I let myself rest on weekends. I opened my laptop on the weekend and realised Monday would be unbearable if I did that again 

Like I did every weekend in 2024. I let myself work from Leeds. I let myself work from London.

I let myself work from bed. And I came back. I looked at my impossibly hard old PR today from four weeks ago and I came back. I felt my love for the code again. I retreated out of the dark cupboard I worked in for all of winter. I let myself dance 

I let myself dance back to the top floor where my team sit flooded with light and my colleague gave up his desk for me and said that I could have it so that I would feel more comfortable

Now that is true love - if it isn’t I don’t know what is

A lovely photo of a beautiful hill

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