“But yesterday, I heard God say, you were born to be the one…”

Hey there.

Still off work. Still tired. Lana del Rey released a new song. Thank God. My soul needed it so much. 

I’m thinking a lot about everything. Thinking about where I went wrong. I just want to release. I want to release all the crap that is in my room. I’ve been trying to fully declutter since I was 21. I give away so much. I donate so much. But then I never quite finish. I never get to the click. And then I buy more. I don’t know what technique to use. There are so many techniques. The Marie Kondo method. I like to do kinaesthetic tests too. I like to pretend I’m packing up during the pandemic again and I have to make really quick decisions about what to keep and what to leave behind. That was no fun. But it was efficient. I just can’t release it. There’s so much stuff I can’t let go of. I don’t know how to. I don’t know how to.

I suppose that’s a good metaphor for life.

We accumulate stuff and we hold on to it. And we can’t let go of it. But in nonduality we just acknowledge that that stuff was never there to begin with.

There is no union with God because God is the only one there is.

I took this in Yorkshire this year