It Kinda Hit Me Like Lightning

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It Kinda Hit Me Like Lightning

I am kind of quoting Lana del Rey again, as usual - White Mustang this time. 

I am still obsessed with this song.

I love the intensity, the urgency, the seriousness of it all. The reflectiveness, the introspection. The question that she asks herself if you listen closely enough to the way the lyrics are being pronounced:

"Why am I staying?

Why am I staying?"

Why am I staying where I am, when I know I could be more? Why am I staying where I am, when I know I could be doing more?

Why am I holding myself back, when I know I could be doing more?

I want to be a React engineer. I want to be a React engineer.

I want to be a React engineer. I want to be a React engineer.

I WANT TO BE A REACT ENGINEER.

I WANT TO BE A REACT ENGINEER.

I want to do React with TypeScript. I've read about the benefits and arguments for TypeScript and I'm convinced. And I seem to be on the right track.

I want to do everything I can to make this happen. 

I want to do everything I can to make this happen.

I want to do everything within my power to make it happen.

Bootcamp

I am a bootcamp right now.

I am officially withdrawing from the world. I have to do everything I can to make it work, and to help myself make it through it. I might even pause the blog although it is a helpful tool and resource so maybe I will aim for one post a week or something even if it's just on the weekends. 

To-Do List

Eurgh this is long.

0. Potentially solve a problem for bootcamp - finding out if every last little problem is necessary.

If it isn't then maybe I can skip this one.

1. Finish the UI/UX course I was doing 

- finish about wireframing

- write about it on my blog

I wonder if I could skip that one too

2. Finish the Figma part too...

Again it might be worth skipping

But it would be fun to do

SHOULDN'T I JUST FOCUS ON REACT?

I think I am going to ditch everything above this line and make a more react-focused to do list (on top of Bootcamp and CodeWars).


NEW POST ON THIS COMING THIS AFTERNOON OR TOMORROW!


Wim Hof Method

I love the Wim Hof Method and it is helping me to no end to cope with the stress of my bootcamp.

The cold showers and the breathing help me with stress.

The help me to increase my energy levels.

They help me to reduce pain LIKE CRAZY. I struggled for more than 12 years with my breathing. 

TO FINALLY FEEL ABLE TO BREATHE PROPERLY AGAIN FEELS MORE POWERFUL AND EMOTIONAL THAN I COULD EVER POSSIBLY DESCRIBE.

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