When life gives you lemons, scream into a void

First of all here is a picture of me and my newt. 

Second of all I am doing a bootcamp and it is so hard. I am in week 9 of 12 now and all I want to do is cuddle up and curl up into a ball and cry. It is so unimaginably and unbelievably difficult. A theme which has emerged recently is taking care of myself. I don’t really know what that means and yet it is the absolute biggest theme that has emerged in my life at the moment. I honestly don’t know what it means.

I guess it starts with basic things like eating, sleeping, and not working too late. People with ADHD all tend to struggle with things like that. I think it extends to other things. Eg to know me is to know that I live and breathe the Wim Hof method (no pun intended because there’s a lot of breathing involved).

To know me is also to know that I love guided meditations and that I love going on meditation retreats. Retreats only happen for me about twice a year so while that is a lovely thing to look forward to I need to boost my meditation in other ways throughout the year. Enter my guided meditations. 

The plan is to do them every day. They are long and if I fall asleep then that’s okay but they are beautiful and so it is wonderful to get to the end. Thank you.