Just Another Evening Of Pylon-Spotting

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Just Another Evening Of Pylon-Spotting

I can’t help it. I feel like I am being called to the pylons. It just feels like a force greater than myself. Naturally. I see the pylons and I can’t help but walk over. Of course I am super far away - I just see them from a distance and try to get a good view. I am not your average software engineer. I am living out my story to the soundtracks of Taylor Swift and Lana del Rey and okay a lot of EDM when I am actually coding. And Sanskrit chanting okay. 

I hope there will be many more software engineers like me. Girls. Feminine software engineers. 

People who feel their feelings and are not afraid to feel them. 

People who aren’t afraid to write. People who aren’t afraid to speak out. I have been through a lot of difficult stuff in my life. I feel like I will need to tell the full extent of my story one day but am not sure when I will be ready. I need people who have had the same experiences as me to know they can have been through what we have been through and still be successful. Because I could never have believed I would’ve been successful five years ago.

A train track with wires in the foreground and bushes. In the distance are a very faint pylon and some hills and the twilight summer sky
Can you see the tiny pylon? It’s right by the rail. I love them so so so so so so so so much. I love them. I love them with all of my heart. I love them more than life itself. Thank you.

I love what I do so so much. I love it. WOW.

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