Comme si je n’existais pas, elle est passee a cote de moi, sans un regard, reine de Saba, j’ai dit Aicha prends tout est pour toi

When I was a teenager a Touareg band came to visit my school. I jammed with them. Them singing Aicha together was the most beautiful musical performance I will ever see. How do you even follow that?

I care so much about my work. I care so much about what I do. There’s something that just keeps me pushing and keeps me drilling because I care so much. I care so much about what it is that I do. 

I have been told to “take those cares and transform them into demonstrating my performance.” 🎭 but sometimes I don’t always know how to do that directly. Right now my biggest concern is problem solving. I was told that I struggle with solving problems on a smaller scale but the thing is: I need to learn on the big scale: once I learn something on the big scale it is easier for me to translate it to the smaller one. It’s like if you wanted me to consistently run 5K you would be better off with training me for a marathon. This is how I learn. It’s an AuDHD thing. Don’t ask! 

So I just want to say, I am here at my friends house and I want to say: I’m not done. Because I have so much more to do: and so much more to give and so much more to learn. And it starts with acknowledging all of my problem solving lessons and especially the stuff about just thinking. All of my quotes from a blog post or two ago and my tattoo blog post