How I „Built My House” in 2024; and why I may no longer need to work excessively

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How I „Built My House” in 2024; and why I may no longer need to work excessively

I not only have autism and ADHD but I have one of the most unique learning styles. If you don’t believe me that’s chill; ask anyone who’s ever managed me. This is why I blog so much. This is how I learn.

I take much longer to learn stuff and then it stays with me forever. I can only learn things deeply or not at all. My knowledge is profound and I can apply it effortlessly hanging upside down from the ceiling in the middle of my sleep. But first I have to have that knowledge. I am extremely clever (sorry again not just my words) - but that knowledge has to be built up and it takes ages. My employment has depended on employers believing in me - and believing me when I say that it takes 6-9 months for investments to show. That’s a very long time for a company. I have had phenomenal employers.

So about the house I built 

In the absolute nightmare that is navigating learning systems that are not mine I have learned a metaphor. Other people can build a hut, sleep in it for one night and then leave. I can only build mansions that last forever. I can’t use knowledge quickly and apply it. I can only learn things deeply and then use them profoundly.

But as I said to my boss this week: the house is done. 

I used to have to write a blog post consolidating every new thing I learned on Python on Django on debugging on software engineering and on problem solving. Now the house is built. I no longer have to lay the foundations.

Every new piece of knowledge I learn is a frame or a mirror or a curtain. I hang it up. It fits in.

The results are about to show and I no longer have to build the foundations. If I can stay in Python and stay in the backend for now and stay in Kraken 

Then I believe that I have the necessary foundations to build a long and successful career. Which is well underway already.

I just need a place where I can be for long enough so that I can get all of the context and then grasp all of this- and then with the necessary context my true powers will shine ✨ 

Will I have enough time to do it next year in 2025? Do I have enough time to prove myself? Only time will tell. But I know that I have done everything possible 

And now I need to focus on delivering in hours and resting outside of hours cos this is what is going to help me the most 🪩 

It’s time for a work-life balance 
And I will be a better worker for it

A painting of some angels







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