“What are we holding onto, Sam?”

I really hadn’t meant to write much anymore.

My new strategy is to not really work out of hours. I need the time and the energy back. To put into my work. To do things that make me happy. And give it back to my work. I have given it my shot. I have done everything that I could. I went to Bletchley Park three times in the last year. I went to two museums of computer science. I walked around with my open heart. My heart is the most open in the world. My heart is so open it might fall out. There is nothing left that I can do anymore

All that I can really do is demonstrate my passion for problem solving

All I can do is keep logs and apply my problem solving skills to my work because all I can really do is demonstrate it over time

And some things need to be demonstrated many many times

But if you don’t focus on the one or two times when it is first demonstrated you will miss the many many times

I have a whole wall of problem solving skills and I know how to problem solve

Now I just need to rest enough so that I can apply these