Sinnerman

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Sinnerman

I interrupt my posts on software engineering. On my neurodiversity. On AI in water tech. On renewable energy. And on my extreme dedication to my growth and my growth mindset and focusing on all the bits that I don’t know. To talk to you about Nina Simone. Sorry. I won’t do it again. Sorry. Maybe.

Because “Sinnerman” is music. It is music like I’ve never heard it before. 

I don’t think I truly had heard music until I heard this song.

Because everybody alive should hear this song. Everybody alive should hear this song. But while we’re here

I am nervous about tomorrow
I got a bit stuck on my ticket on Friday but I was really really tired and now I have a new strategy
I have a reflective blog post I would like to write tomorrow
And I have a fair few more to go
I need to write my reflections on Friday, Friday had at least two plot twists
I need to finish my current ticket
Do the Alembic tutorial
Write a proposal if time
Do the last ticket
Ask for more tickets

I don’t know when my next WATER AI ARTICLE will be

I don’t know but I can’t wait

I’m off on Tuesday

On Wednesday I’m starting something big

I need to do my git course

I NEED TO DO MY GIT COURSE

I NEED TO FINISH MY DEBUGGING COURSE ONE DAY AS WELL. I have a million blog posts to write. 

And I need to write something out in my journal 2-3 more times plus my director has given me something to reflect on in my journal. And 

I need to finish writing something out the first time and I don’t know whether to do it one or two more times please thanks

I want to call my Dad. I want to call my Mum. 

I want to call my grandmother. I want to call my grandad on my other side. I won’t have them forever 

In a rare moment of weakness: I miss my family. I’m wanting to talk to them more. I’m busy and I work too much. I will do the upskilling and my git course etc

And most importantly of all my reflective blog posts 

A photo of a valley with a river
Luxembourg City in winter

But I can’t wait til it’s my day job and just the water tech research 

SO I RUN TO THE RIVER
IT WAS BLEEDING 
I RUN TO THE SEA

SO I RUN TO THE RIVER
IT WAS BOILIN’
I RUN TO THE SEA

SO I RUN TO THE LORD
PLEASE HELP ME LORD
DONT YOU SEE ME PRAYING
DONT YOU SEE ME DOWN HERE PRAYING

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