Bliss

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Bliss

I woke up feeling exhausted and I guess I have to say: writing reflective blog posts on my job is still working. A shame because they are really useful. But I got to the conclusion I needed to reach.

My job is my tickets. My job is not courses (luckily am done with those mostly). My job is not dealing with the waterfall of slack messages and posts that fall on my every day. Those can often wait (not always but that is okay too). My job is to open my asana board and work through my tickets.

My job is to have my pycharm open and work in my IDE. My job is to ask questions and look up things I don’t understand and find out how to do things.

My job is results driven and output based and I have to focus on things like „have I delivered my tickets?”. And on outcomes. Of course it’s normal to have to research stuff and to get things wrong but if I put in the hours and PUT in the focus then I know that I will be okay. Especially those early morning hours which I need so much 🌅 🌄 

I tried to force myself to not do water tech last night. I wasn’t happy. I wrote half a blog post before going to bed - just before I fell asleep - and it felt better. Conclusions
  • Writing reflective blog posts tires me out
  • I need to focus on my tickets
  • I am going to research water tech either way so I may as well just let myself
I want to share finally. The last year has been so hard. I want to say the hardest year of my life but I have had some pretty tough years. But it has been so so so hard and I have been switched on 24/7 trying to make it work. Maybe trying too hard? But it has taken me back to my true nature and that which I truly am

Pure consciousness

Bliss

And that which we all are

And I pray for you that some day you may be able to see this for yourselves. 

That was are all pure consciousness. 

We are all pure bliss. We are all God’s Infinite Being. ♾️ 
We are all One.
And there is no we are.

There is only I am. My wish for you and my prayer for you all is that you may all one day know your true nature

And that you may know who you really are

A statue of an angel
A statue of an angel in Eastbourne


Thank you

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