Speak Your Truth

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Speak Your Truth

“Do what you wanna do, go out and speak your truth.” 
My truth is this. That I never feel more alive and inspired than when I see a pylon. That I never feel more myself or closer to God than when I see a pylon or a wind turbine. There is however one exception. That is when I look at a water infrastructure building. Then I don’t even feel close to god anymore.

Then there is no more me.

There is no more Susanna. There is no one to even be close to or far from God anymore.

There is only openness. Emptiness. Openness. Freedom. But god do I still love a pylon. And I love my dad who sent me a note about the pylons in the renewable energy documentary on BBC today

When I look at the water infrastructure then I truly disappear
A photo of Susanna in her kraken office and reflections in the kraken branded mirror

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