The presence of the morning dew welcomes us with the grace of a fresh start

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The presence of the morning dew welcomes us with the grace of a fresh start

I know I shouldn’t be blogging at this time. Somebody confiscate my phone. 

But listen. I want to say that I am so sorry. I have made so many mistakes. I struggled with a company that didn’t impose a clear structure on me and have floundered and floundered and struggled to create my own structure. But listen I am getting there with my coach and I know that we can make it work. I have been touched and moved by the offers and interventions of support from my managers. I am extremely grateful for and moved by the coaching thing. I was never given much choice and I was really glad I wasn’t because I probably would’ve said no. And doing this is the best thing in the world. So I am so very very glad that I didn’t get to say no indeed! I feel so very very lucky to be here. 

And to be alive. Trust me when you are me you feel very lucky to get to be alive. And I want to say

I’m sorry I fucked up

I’m sorry I messed up

I tried so so hard and I wanted this so so badly

And sometimes, I get things wrong

And I got the routine and the structure wrong

And I got the level that I was hired to wrong probably

And I got the amount of backend experience I had totally wrong colossally but I love AI and I love water tech and I love renewable energy and I am more passionate about this than anything

And so I just want to say thank you

The job is working. The job is clicking. The job has clicked. And the structure and support and routine are all falling into place.

Thank you for the opportunity 
A passage from a non dual text

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