The Winter is Over for Me

My probation ended and with it ended the longest winter of my life. I feel like winter 2024 never finished after losing my job in February and then struggling to fit into my new one and then upskilling into it. I gave up so much to get here.

I did it because I care.

I did it because I care about the wind farms and the wind turbines and the internet towers and about the water infrastructure. I consistently have to prioritise. Now that my work is in a flow state the reality of dealing with my life outside of work is coming back to me. Just about every cooked food in the world makes me feel ill and so I am just eating raw fruit more and more. I am of course eating other things too but I am trying to phase them out. Salt and fat make me feel ill. Most cooked foods make me feel ill too unless they are quinoa. Also I usually feel okay eating my mums food but that is because it has magic qualities. The winter was a long one for me this year. I only cared about passing my probation.

But I surely began to dance again as well and that was great. I wanted to dance again this evening but I ate some heavy cooked food and I don’t feel up to it anymore legitimately. I’m still learning. Eating raw and light foods is also amazing for my desired lifestyle.

Evening dance classes and chasing sunsets. I want to have so much more energy. I want to have an empty room like a Buddhist monk. I want to rid myself of almost all possessions. I want to keep my room clean at all times.

I want to write about and research AI in water tech and I don’t know why I don’t know why but I do

After finishing my probation I was in desperate need of emotional support and these things helped me

• The performance coach 
• My mum
• My managers kindness
• My dance teacher