Missing Home

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Missing Home

Now there’s some space in my life I can finally admit it. I miss home so so much. I miss mainland Europe and I miss Luxembourg and most of all I just miss the forests and I miss the trees.

When you arrive at the top of the massive hill that I live on, there’s a moment when you can see a certain selection of trees in the distance. And it’s just so beautiful. I love it so much.

I can feel so much love coming from the forests and the trees. And I never feel happier than when I am running around, roaming wild and free in nature.

During Covid, I was back home and due to how wild and remote it is there was no restriction on how much I could go outside - only my masters degree was stopping me.

I have seen so many things. I have seen the golden light on the Secret Cliffs at sunset. I have seen a deer climbing up a hill vertically. I love deer. They are my favourite animal. I love it when they show up somewhere it makes me so happy. Everything I do I do it for the earth. 

That’s why I left right. To save the earth. Because I love it. That’s why I do what I do. To help protect the earth. And I hope to do it through water. I did it for so many years through renewable energy and now I hope to do it through water. Thank you.
A playground near my home

Me on a meditation retreat in November 

A canal on Lincolnshire for no reason bye

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