And it's not because of you, that I turned out so dangerous

I came back to work. It's so good to be back. I have already messed up once - I stayed late after work to help with an event. This was already a mistake. 

I got really tired and struggled to get home and didn't rest properly and then felt tired the next day. I can see much better now how being over active in too much stuff can hold me back in my work. I remember we spoke with my manager before we both went on leave, about how much potential I have.

I really need to focus on software engineering work. Technical problem solving. Helping the team. I need to be so careful of distractions.

Distractions distract me more than they distract people.

My working style is very unique.

I have to be very, very deeply focused. The less I have going on the better. That doesn't mean to say outside of work - well let's see.

I have a dance class tonight for the first time. (A new one in Brighton - have danced in London midweek before).

Let's see how it impacts me to dance midweek - will it energise me or distract me? Will I come home more tired or have the energy to do more stuff? Dancing clears my head - will I work better the next day? 

Thank you