“If you have fallen to the ground, use it as a lever to raise yourself up again”

If there’s anyone who knows about laying on the floor it’s me. 

I think I hold some kind of a Guiness World Record. Somebody once said to me “you fall to the floor… but every time you fall you pick yourself up!” I thought back then that that person was so stupid and so annoying. Of course I got up. What choice did I have? But I think there was a deeper meaning there of perseverance. One that I refused to accept at the time. Look I am dancing around a lot of difficult topics here.

I am dancing over the shame and the pain of the last twelve months. How hard it was.

How much I didn’t feel like I deserved to be here. How hard I had to fight to get my voice and my talents heard. The constant battle of trying to prove myself while knowing it takes about 9 months for the job to click for me. It was so exhausting and traumatic and I never want to go through it again. My biggest fear is not progressing. If I was so misunderstood before then won’t I be misunderstood again.

I hope not. And I have to believe and have hope in the good of all things and hope that it will all work out for the best. I have to hope and pray for justice. Just like I have done so many times before.

Because I know that I can do the job really well. And I know that the talent is there. I just have to hope it will come through.

I love Anandamayi Ma. Every quote hits like perfection.