I’m Loving Angels Instead

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I’m Loving Angels Instead

Look, I’m really quite terrified about retuning to work on Tuesday. I’m feeling every emotion in the world at the moment. I have found so much of myself while I have been off work. I just don’t want to lose that again.

I am done with trying to justify myself to people. My performance coach says I do that too much.

I am a child of the trees. I am a child of the fairies. I am a child of the angels. I am a child of the stars. I was born to dance barefoot upon this earth. I was born to love the pylons and the wind farms. And most of all I was born to try and bring this back into tech somehow

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