Kaos

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Kaos

Chaos is the home of all art. Destruction is the home of all art. Art is not nice, clean. 

Art is a mess.

Art is destructive. And art cannot stay the same. It has to evolve. And I know that it is time for this blog to evolve too. And I have to rethink how I do things. I want to keep my writing reasonably professional. And it’s getting harder and harder to do that. The deeper and deeper I sink into God the more and more it is hard to separate my personal posts from nonduality. But I also have started my own new blog where I write about nonduality. Although I have to admit I don’t like writing about nonduality for the sake of it. When it comes through then it’s great but I don’t like forcing it. My biggest fear is imposing on my colleagues.

More and more of my posts are God posts. I don’t know if people at work on the feed might be upset by them or perturbed by them.

 But I want to share my water and occasional technical blog posts. So what to do? I have started a new water blog although what if I want to go back to renewable energy one day? So I just share the water one with work? And put occasional technical blog posts in there? Do I keep my nonduality one alone? One thing is sure.

I feel like this blog might have come to its end. Nothing to be ashamed of. I wrote over 700 blog posts.

I planned fortyish more water ones.

Those plans are not being thrown away. Imtiaz Dharker said writing isn’t interesting unless it’s dangerous.
A verse on water from the bible


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