Ra Ra Rasputin

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Ra Ra Rasputin 

The story of Rasputin was so pertinent to me growing up. I can’t even remember where it began.

My little sister was obsessed with the movie “Anastasia” and so we watched that all the time with Rasputin cartoonified in there.

I also had a favourite Lord of the Rings documentary which showed how Grima Wormtongue was based off of Rasputin.

But also my Uncle loves Boney M. And so the song Rasputin became an instant favourite. And you can’t be depressed while listening to that song. It’s impossible. Just try. I’m writing this listening to Beethoven’s 7th symphony. The second part. It quickly captured my heart. On Tuesday I’m due to go back to work. I’ve had a lot of fears and doubts and nervousness about going back. I don’t want to make the same mistakes again.

An inn saying ye olde salutation inn

I want to have better boundaries both in and out of work. I want to rest more and sleep more. I want to keep hydrating myself like I have been on my break. Because I have been feeling so much better. My seizures have reduced so much but my doctor and I are trying something new and I hope this could be the end. (He is a holistic doctor but I won’t say any more than that). I want to ditch YouTube shorts for spiritual podcasts and for Beethoven at bedtime. And I want to read my beautiful new book on Tibet. Yeah. Thanks. Thank you

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