Rivers Flowing Tears Til Your Destinies Dissolve

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Rivers Flowing Tears Til Your Destinies Dissolve

This is kind of like a part two to my last blog post. Titles are from a song called Closer by Screaming Trees. 

That whole album is phenomenal. Right so I was talking about how I took a year out ten years ago. And now I am only taking a few weeks out and half of it was holiday anyway. But it still feels like a lot. And it still feels a bit traumatic for me. Like a weird blast from the past. But in my blog post I listed lots of beautiful and healing things that happened as a result of dropping out of Uni. And so I’m sure beautiful and healing things will happen as a result of this break now. Because by God I need healing like never before. My heart is so open and vulnerable and tender and ready to be loved. Ready and waiting to be loved. Because

I just need love so much right now. I need love like I’ve needed it never before.

Love for all things and everyone around me. Love for everything in the world. But here’s a quote from my meditation teacher:

‘I love these night-time walks’, I said to Anandamaya Ma
‘Love only love’, she said

Love Only love. 

When I love only love then I immediately become displaced. I realise I am love itself. When I love only love I realise I am love. 

I listened with Beethoven And he showed me everything As the crystallised form Of a great cosmic pulsation

I remember myself. We are all love. Thank you


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