We’ll Make The Mundane… Our Masterpiece, Part 2

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We’ll Make The Mundane… Our Masterpiece, Part 2

I am off work and probably not meant to be writing this but I think it will be impossible not to write for a day or two… as like a fan I need to stop my whirring as I finally settle. And stopping always gives us time to reflect. And to say: I really love my job. I don’t think that anyone gets this. 

The reason I did this and did everything I did last year is because I love my job so so much.

The reason I didn’t stop for two seconds after getting laid off (BIG MISTAKE) was because I knew I couldn’t stop with either renewable energy or software engineering. This is because I love the Earth so so much.

This is what I do for the Earth. Everything I do I do it for the Earth. This is why I couldn’t lose this job I have now. The story is public info: joined, battled on, had a ten month probation.

Now I have period of sick leave as well as a holiday. I am just so tired. I would not ever want to do what I did last year again. Not even for anything in the world. But I don’t regret it. Because I really love what I do so much.

And I can’t wait to show it to the world. I can’t wait for the results to come through. Because this is only just the beginning. But I need to make my life sustainable.

Make my space really clear and tidy - and with my autism the only option really is to have the minimum number of possessions possible. And to really take care of myself. Watermelon juice? Easy to do. 

Pomegranate juice? Easy to do. If you buy pre-cut pomegranate. Orange juice? Cheaper to do, easy enough, if you can handle the peeling. 

Small things which I got too tired to do recently. I need a clean tidy space. 

I need a high fruit, fruit based diet. Ideally most if not all of my everyday foods should be raw. Trying to figure out raw dinners.

And dance is saving my life. Dance is really helping my immunity. Which dropped so much recently. So I need to dance and eat well and have a clear space. And rest and meditate. 🧘‍♀️ 

And then and only then can I smash it like the badass AI engineer that I am

“Day after day, we’ll make the mundane, our masterpiece.”

My masterpiece 

Some nature from a train window


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