When the Sufis are Blaring on my iPhone, then I turn them up

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When the Sufis are Blaring on my iPhone, then I turn them up

In January I was in a dance workshop at my favourite meditation space in London. 

The teacher said „and now… we have borrowed this space from the Sufis… and I want to hand it back to them.”

And then he played three long Sufi songs. I began to cry at the first one. Because it opened up my heart so much. 

It made me realise that I only want God. As I go through life I have to realise that I only want God. We can want things in life but really we only just want God. All of our actions are trying to lead us back to God. It’s the same thing really anyways

A catholic chapel on the Isle of Wight 

The dance teacher sent me the song afterwards. I listen to it a lot. It’s 17 minutes long. Then when the Sufis are blaring from my iPhone, then I turn them up


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