Healing on a Game-Changing Level

Look. I rode a bike today. I RODE A BIKE TODAY. It hasn’t felt safe for me to do that in years. And especially not alone. But today alone on the beach in Worthing - I felt into my body and brain. 

And for the first time in years I felt so far from a seizure that I rented the bike, cycled very very far down the seafront 

And cycled back up again. 

Many years ago when I was first beginning to recover 

My mother warned me: nobody will ever understand you. Nobody will ever understand how it feels

To be able to walk down the street and not be afraid of collapsing - not only that but completely losing contact with reality for a few minutes

To be able to ride a bike. To be able to work. And hopefully things like dating and driving will come too. So amazing. And hoping dance will continue

I put today’s success down to many things; resting and conserving my energy. But I also put it down to my adrenal snacks

Apple, celery and dates. The most simple of adrenal snacks. 

I had that today after my smoothie. It regulated my blood sugar. It calmed my nervous system.

I stopped trying to run away - for the first time in 15 years

I stayed full for hours. Right now I’m having another adrenal snack. Berries, cucumber and raw honey. I also have orange spinach and avocado in.