Righting Wrongs

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Righting Wrongs

We all mess up. We all do some things wrong sometimes, right? And for all the things I have done wrong I am so so sorry. Time and time again one theme comes up for me. Not appreciating what I had enough.

On the darkest and longest nights of my life I realise one thing: how lucky I am.

That can be the hardest thing to understand and accept sometimes. My darkest and longest nights have often led me to this: understanding how grateful I am and how much I love my work. I am so lucky to be able to work. I know what it's like to feel like you won't be able to work. I know a lot of things happened that weren't my fault. But one thing I know for sure is that we can always be grateful for everything. Sometimes it's really hard to be grateful - when everything hurts and everything is difficult. I don't know how to say or who to say to

How grateful I am for everything. I am so lucky to have a family. I am so lucky to have people who love me. I am so lucky to have people who love me and people who will wish me a happy birthday and who I can see at Christmas. People who I can visit and who want me to visit them.

I am so grateful to have flatmates who love me. Who lift me and empower me and power me up. Who see the best in me and whom I get to live with every day. I am grateful to have friends in the office and teammates whom I love. I am grateful to have work that I love and a passion 

And a dance practice. I am grateful for each and every single person who mentors me. Grateful for everyone who offers to put in a 1:1 in the calendar. I am grateful to sing, I love singing. I am so grateful to be alive, grateful to be able to move, grateful to be able to breathe. I am grateful for each and every person who has uplifted me and taken me through my career. But on my darkest nights

They make me realise

What it means to have a job that I love so much.

What it means to have a passion.

But long before I had this passion

How did I cope? I had a fire then too. A fire before even my passion.

But there is a greater type of gratitude. A type of gratitude that transcends everything. And that is the gratitude to God. Because then we can understand what Rupert Spira said of Anandamayi Ma: 

"Love only love, she said." Love only love she said 

Love only love

Because there is nothing to be grateful for

There is only gratitude for love itself

There is only love for love itself

There is only love for love

A photo of trees in the forest

There is only love

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