The Dancing Little Girl and the Golden Dragon

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The Dancing Little Girl and the Golden Dragon

I once had a golden dragon.
She was very enlightened. But the dragon left me for a little girl in Southampton. This is the story. When we all got laid off from my last job we got invited for an open day at my current employer. On my way to the office I found a toy shop. Genius that I am

I spent a lot of money on a cuddly blue and red dragon. And then a month or so later when I had the technical interview which by the way was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life (I did a Django test with no backend experience) I did it in person 

And so I went back to the shop. And got myself a golden dragon. And that golden dragon 

Came on two meditation retreats with me. The blue one even came on one. And so Yin was a very enlightened golden dragon.

And my Dutch friend Simone really liked my blue dragon Yang. So did a lot of my colleagues. True to his name Yang would give people supports of energy. Anyway one day. When my seizures began to lift and I began to be able to dance. I was so desperate to dance some more. That I got the train to southampton. And yin came too. And there was a little girl there. And the little girl was a bit bored - she was with her mum and some family friends I think - she I gave her Yin to dance with as well as my squeezy space shuttle. But it was obvious to me that the little girl didn’t want to give Yin back. I couldn’t separate them.

So I let her keep her. Weird decision. Yin was very expensive and had huge sentimental value. But it was during my 10 month probation. Arguably the worst period of my life. So I felt I had to give something up. Give to the universe. Give back. Yin sat through a lot of meditations. I just hope that she gives back everything she knows to the little girl in Southampton

And as for me. I passed that probation. The worst period of my life ended. And I got myself a giant purple dragon. 

She’s called Harmony
Blue painting reflecting the sea
P.s Yang didn’t want to stay with me without Yin. 

So he got posted to the Netherlands. He was so soft and cuddly. I miss him too. But sometimes the love we give away is the only love we keep. And we have to let things go

Thanks 

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