This is a place where I don't feel alone, this is a place where I feel at home

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This is a place where I don't feel alone, this is a place where I feel at home

"I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing light of your own being." - Hafiz. I first discovered the nondual understanding in April 2022 when someone ordered me a book on it. The book disappeared. So she ordered me a second one. I got it and I didn't like it. It said "You are not the body." I struggled with disassociations; how on earth was this going to help me? I donated it. On the way back from the charity shop, my neighbour came to me: "Susanna, I have a parcel for you! I've had it for two weeks." I can take a hint, okay! It was the book. I watched a video by the author, Jean Klein.

My life has changed in the biggest possible way since I saw that video. It only took a few more videos from Francis Lucille and Rupert Spira for me to never be able to see myself as a separate human being again. 

My life was filled with magic and transformed over night. I poured over Francis Lucille books on the bus. I devoured Rupert Spira books. I watched magical video after magical YouTube video. Every video was a revalation.

Every insight shattered my world open.

Coding

I began coding while I was reading "You Are The Happiness You Seek." And all my software engineering miracles happened during that time. All the people who I met who told me I was meant to do this. I was truly on a high. 

Oh, to be 28 again.

Everything was on fire, the world was on fire, and I was on fire too. But that was a state. And state's can't last. Nothing lasts. Nothing is eternal. Nothing is eternal. Nothing can last eternally. Nothing lasts forever. Nothing lasts eternally - except the light of God. The "I am" 
A photo of a castle in a field taken from the window of a train

The eternal light that fills us. That which we are. Thank you

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