Imposter Syndrome and Confidence

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Imposter Syndrome and Confidence

I have worked with a crazy number of people. This is my fifth tech team (at least). I have worked in product and software and worked across three tech companies. I have worked with a LOT of different people. And you would be amazed. How many people have opened up to me and told me that they have imposter syndrome. People you wouldn’t really expect. Seniors. Senior leaders. And far from the stereotype of only women getting imposter syndrome - many many wonderful men have told me that they have imposter syndrome. Men who I love and admire and respect so much 

Men who I look up to completely and to me represent everything that is great about tech 

Brilliant talented leaders. Talented outstanding software engineers. We all get it. What makes me sad is that I came into this industry with a lot more confidence than I have now. I once felt that I was really meant to do this. I once felt that I really belonged here. Of course I still feel that and of course I still feel that I belong here. But I have watched my confidence plummet with time. If I had one tip to the industry it’s to write clearer and more explicit tickets for new software engineers. It’s hard enough if they’re not clear. But if you have the double burden of being new and neurodivergent as well - it makes things even more difficult. From my very first job I have struggled with tickets not being explicitly written. But I know that when I am a senior and when I am the one writing tickets for others - I will be writing the most beautiful and explicit clear tickets that anyone alive has ever seen

Promise. Without giving the solutions. But giving nice clear steps 

With structure. Promise

But this isn’t the point of this blog post
A photo of a big purple cuddly dragon with glasses on and reading a German book on yoga

The point of this blog post is a request and a plea for help. Is that I need every bit of help I can get on this software engineering journey. I need every piece of help and confidence I can get. Is that I’m going through a tough time. And I am really struggling to believe in myself. Even though I know that I am meant to do this. And that every every piece of confidence that anyone can give me will really help

Anyway thanks

Thanks 

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