The Greatest Story That Ever Was Told

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The Greatest Story That Ever Was Told

Today was a brilliant day for me. Today was the best day ever in terms of coding. I did so much work. I got a whole ticket done (starting on it yesterday afternoon). I had Friday as a goal and it’s all ready for self review; then if all of the tests pass okay then it’s ready for review; and then it’s ready to be merged etc. Today could feel like a fluke but it wasn’t a fluke. Years and years of work have gone into getting me to this place. Obscene amounts of time have been put into perfecting things and processing instructions and feedback, written or otherwise, writing it down myself, again and again 

No matter how long it takes
A photo of Susanna walking down a country path
For as long as it takes. 

I know the goal is here not to move as fast as I can or burn out. But what really matters to me here is
  • I have built the tools to use independence
  • I have built the tools to unblock myself
  • Today I got stuck and then instead of staying stuck I used pen and paper to unblock myself
  • Today I got stuck and then I asked for help and then was politely told to look a bit closer at something (which is awesome)
  • Then I looked for half an hour and politely explained what made sense and what didn’t
  • And then I was told that it wasn’t the best example - and using the new example I was pretty much able to figure it out for myself
And look. I am doing lots of good things here. I have ditched my personal project for now and I pretty much think that that was a good thing to do. Better focus on the tickets at least for now. I will still to targeted learning but my priority of the ticket and of only having calls which are relevant and of only doing learning which is targeted and is relevant and of having that first hour back of the day for reviewing my own commits and PR comments*

Is golden 

And is worth its weight in gold

Thank you 

* ps writing out comments to myself on my own code and own PRs is the piece of golden magic that I needed. It immediately unblocks me and when combined with pen and paper it is golden. 
Doing something the first time for me is so hard and once I can crack something and get it down it is so much easier and so once this ticket is done the next two or so which are very similar should be so so so much easier for me 


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