Today went better than I could ever have dreamed

Today was my return to work after a lot of reflection. I am so happy and so proud of how it went. I did my best and it was not for nothing. I did so so well. I am so proud of myself. Here is what I did well. In no particular order:

• I used my standup update really well. I wrote about what I wanted to do and how I wanted to do this. I have to keep this up. Going on forward this is the best way for me to work
• I want myself to really think about the practical action steps each day I am going to take to focus on my ticket
• I really processed and scoped the ticket. I used 5 sheets of A3 paper and my marker pens and this is what it took and I have no regrets. The result was that I was able to write down all the steps. It was already what it said on the ticket. But I had to be able to write it up for myself first for it to work
• I wrote myself out a comment with the format I needed. After processing and writing out everything it was clear in my head. So I wrote out in a comment what I needed to do. And it was basically the same as the ticket. But that’s what I needed. If I can write out the instructions from me then I can do them
• I had huge help from the team because they broke down the subtasks and made them smaller and easier to read
• I took action. After I wrote down my steps I didn’t dawdle. I acted. I forced myself out of my comfort zone. I troubleshooted and debugged things. I asked chat gpt to fill out basic knowledge gaps and things I didn’t know. I forced myself to run things even when I didn’t feel ready and I debugged them on the fly and it worked 
• I accepted help. A coffee with a staff engineer friend turned into useful and helpful hints and tips. I accepted help from someone who had offered - and I wouldn’t have done so if my friend hadn’t told me to do so. Thank you!