Continuing to make mistakes on the daily

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Continuing to make mistakes on the daily

So many mistakes made. So many. But not the ones you might think
  • Someone asked me to put some time in “this week” when it suited me. But there was no time this week that suited me. I took it too literally. I could’ve gone for next week or so. I gave up coding time and I wish I hadn’t. Note for next time: don’t override coding slots (but I haven’t done it before and am really proud)
  • Sometimes I dive into things too quickly. Sometimes it’s better to just sit back and let things happen - if they are to ever happen at all. “Stay centred in the Tao, and the world comes to you. Comes, and isn’t harmed”. - Tao te Ching, Stephen Mitchell translation. The biggest mistake really is to seek anything other than god. I’m sorry but you will not be able to stamp that out of me. You will not be able to take that away from me
  • I have gotten back on track again. It was a real low. But I am back now again. Thank you. For a while my work got really blocked and stuck by a lot of things. But it seems to have moved on thank god
Being a developer can be a very very frustrating experience

Here’s where I’m at with my work (vaguely):
  • I raised a PR and merged it today yay
  • I am starting a new PR on a small related thingy
  • Then I have written up a ticket to add tests which someone is reviewing as I don’t 100% know which tests were right to add
  • Then when all of that is done
  • I was writing some tests for another ticket but they got blocked
  • So they have been unblocked now so I must finish those
  • And then raise those as a new PR
  • And then what. Then the main feature still needs to be fixed 
It’s a hard life 
A photo of a pink and White House with a yellow door
I want a lot of things right now. I want a hug. I want to go back to bed with my hot water bottle. But I have to do adult things. Like cooking and washing my hair. The traitors starts soon. 

I have a big appointment coming up on Friday. I’m doing some trauma informed yoga. Oh my god I have dreamed of this for years. It took me years to build up to this. It’s bloody expensive and I’ve worked so hard to build up to this. It took me years to build up the courage to see this one person 

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