The Absolute Chaos of Having ADHD on a Weekend

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The Absolute Chaos of Weekends with ADHD

It’s the weekend. I got back from Manchester this week. Being in Manchester, where I did my second Masters degree, invariably raises ten million emotions. But here I am at home now. And weekends are hard for people with ADHD. I want to do everything at once. Without the rules or confines of work or eg of a scheduled dance class 

My life becomes complete chaos. What do I want to do? I want to
  • Throw away every single possession I own that I don’t need
  • Make some vegetable soup - roasted red pepper and tomato yum
  • Decide whether I should buy a thermos flask so I can take soup to work (yum)
  • (I could live off soup if I was able to)
  • Write a blog post on the pragmatic programmer (might have to be the next one hahaha)
  • Wash my hair (obviously) but this will restrict how much I can go out for the next few hours cos it’s so cold
  • Plan my week - I bought both my planners home with me from work
  • Drink more chamomile tea because someone I’m working with told me it was good for me
  • Clear up a part of my room
  • Do some yoga
  • Throw away all of my possessions so that I have room to do yoga in my tiny bedroom in my tiny flat
  • Go for a coffee or a tea at my favourite local cafe where I have a stamp card - I had planned this for months
  • See if there is maybe an online dance class today I could do because I love dancing
  • Or just dance alone 
  • This is without any of the things I would love to be doing more of eg going for a hike (actually I’d love to go for a long walk and as my seizures reduce I am embracing the glory and the joy of walking again, the greatest exercise of all, although I do love dancing and yoga).
This is but a small list of the most urgent things that come into my mind. I don’t have kids. I don’t have to do any family commitments or go on any trips this weekend. But imagine if I did. Having ADHD is so unbelievably hard. It is so great to have so many ideas 

The problem is I want to do them all at once

I didn’t even say the last few things like finishing the journaling I started this morning or rewatching the 2010 monsters film. And this is before someone calls me or texts me and needs or wants my help or my attention

So tell me

When I am supposed to rest 
A display of posters with focus on the even frog poster

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