The Pragmatic Princess

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The Pragmatic Princess

I get bored very easily (well. I do and I don’t). I have a need for inspiration and stimulation. And sometimes that’s what it takes to motivate me. My mum once said when I was a teenager that I needed bootcamp style environment to thrive. It’s true - in an emergency you want someone with ADHD there. Once when there was a water emergency in my village I set to action boiling four pots at a time and decanting water that had been boiled for ten minutes into every container in the house. Why? Because there was something in the water that meant that we could not drink it. I always do better with strict managers than with relaxed managers 

Of course within reason and of course I recommend choosing where to use your strictness wisely. But I like to be challenged. And right now I am bored. Bored of not seeing the results. Bored of not having moved on to the next level. Where are all of the results of my hard work? Where are they? And so that is a part of why I am reading this book and why one of my most beloved mentors of all time (and I’ve had a LOT) recommended it to me. Because I live with a pain I can’t put into words. A pain of missed opportunities and successes not seen.

But I know that I got to start over. And I know that in a world where my AI repo was constantly glitching and where I had setup issues from the start and somehow these were never caught. I know in a world where it has often felt like I was blamed for things outside of my control. I know in a world where I have been othered and made to feel as if I were a bit difficult sometimes 

Where really it was just the environment that was not accessible, and not me

There is something bigger. I have something bigger to give. And there is more to come. Thank you 
A piece of blank paper in a file that says Alan Turing: code breaker at the top

Did you know that I once wrote a song about Alan Turing and it was passed on to his family? Via a foundation 

All of this cannot have been for nothing

And don’t ask me why this is a particularly low and painful day but it is

And so I want to keep on reading at some point. What did they cover? Entropy? Technical debt? Software rot? Not to say the cat ate my source code? To make choices and take responsibility for them

Can I make the world more accessible? I don’t think I can. Anyway thanks

Thank you

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