What I realised about dancing in the middle of the night in a hotel room in Leeds

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What I realised about dancing in the middle of the night in a hotel room in Leeds

Made it up north. So tired. Lots of beautiful gifts. Lots of stuff to get done tomorrow on my day off. A lot of my days off this year have been spent supporting other people. And that is okay, too. It is a beautiful and a special wonderful honour and privilege to be able to support others.

How lucky I am to be fit and strong and healthy and able to support other people. People who it is an honour to love. Love is the only thing that matters in this universe. I would drop everything else in an instant. And this is where I got dancing wrong. I fell into a trap. How many hours do I dance a week? Could I do more? How many hours are my classes? Oh no if I skip one it is the end of the world. You would have to know my personal history to understand why my approach to exercise can easily go in the wrong direction. But anyway

I forgot

I have been so silly. I forgot the real philosophy of dance. Forgot about the healing journey and what it really was about. Dancing is not about “oh now my legs are so ripped and if I do not maintain this frequency of dancing I might lose muscle and then the world will end”. Dancing is about “how is my body at? How am I today? How do I feel? What are my emotions like? What are my longings? What am I dealing with? WHAT STORY DOES EACH AND EVERY ONE OF MY BODY PARTS TELL?” And that doesn’t matter

If it’s five minutes or ten
Or if it’s three hours
Or three days

It’s not a competition. Not even with yourself. It’s just about honesty and a game of honesty. Where am I at now? Where am I really? So tomorrow morning when I hopefully dance in my Leeds hotel room

Overlooking the city

I hope to dance like that. With an attitude of openness to my body

With an attitude of openness and honesty and truth

No competitions

No lies

No running away from everything
No compulsions
No hidden desires 
No ulterior motives

But just an attitude of
Good honest and clear dance

Thank you 
Sunset in a hotel in Leeds
I can’t wait to dance tomorrow and to design my own playlist fresh on the day in the moment omg xxx

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