I LOVE SOFTWARE ENGINEERING

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I LOVE SOFTWARE ENGINEERING

Today I felt something I almost haven’t felt in years. I felt my original love for software engineering. I mean… when I first started oh my god my life was a permanent high and I’ve never been so happy. I was on fire. Constantly. I felt like I had wings with air beneath them. This faded a little after 18 months but when I started at Kraken in April 2024… it came back again. All of the magic. I felt it. That sense of destiny. That sense of purpose. I felt it again. I got myself four journals with the inscription “born to be an engineer” on them. 

And I knew it was my destiny. I really felt a lot of magic when I moved to the frontend again this summer. But it wasn’t until today that I finally felt the magic again

Oh my God. Higher than the highest high. When I feel my purest love for software engineering… it is like the sweetest and most purest love and fire and passion. I love the wind farms and I love my family and I love my colleagues and friends. And my love for software engineering is a really beautiful and unique flavour which is like a high and its own unique categorisation of passion and purpose. And so to feel it again today… well it was amazing. It was the best. And it reminded me why I don’t give up. It reminded me why I could cry on the job regularly or go through ten month probation periods or go through months of frustration and not give up. Because I knew at my core

That I am meant to be doing this. That sense of passion and life purpose that I have been feeling. Deep down at my core 

Oh my God

I always knew that it was there

Thank you 

Because I am born to be an engineer
And I am meant to be doing this

Thank you
Wind farms in a field
I can go for years and years without feeling that motivation but when it comes back it’s like it makes my whole life worth living and everything up until here has been worth it honestly

And what made that happen today? We diagnosed the issue

We said: that I had problems. And that I needed the tools to solve them. What problems? Technical problems 

And we realised 

That by doing the work I could solve all of my other problems

Something I knew

But didn’t know how to articulate. So we are going to stay a lot more technically focused going forwards
We are going to be a lot more technical going forward
I feel so lucky
I am the luckiest woman in the world
Thank you xxx ❤️💖💖

The future is oh so stunningly bright and I have two new reflective journals for these sessions as well
Yasssss
Thanks 
❤️‍🔥

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