Opening my heart to a better future

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Opening my heart to a better future 

I am not here to talk about the things I have been through in my life or what I have been through to mean things are a certain way right now. I am here to live a better life for today and plan a better tomorrow. Last night I did one of the most powerful things I have ever done in my life. I went back to some moments in my life

And I saw everything as love. I went back into a room I once walked into and I saw the very doorway as love. I saw the counter as love. The books the floors

The very dress that I was wearing. I felt the air in the room as love and the very air that I was breathing in as love. I saw any interactions with people as the people just being made out of pure love. I saw the light from the sun that was streaming into the room as made of pure love

And then today my life transformed forever
I had one of the biggest solutions to one of the greatest and biggest problems in my life
And I fell back in love with software

(I also made up with some people I had had a fight with (very rare for me - oh how I missed them both)).
(And I had some lovely interactions with New York!).

But I didn’t stop there

Last night
I walked into another room
In my minds eye

And I saw it all as love

The American flag on the wall
The chair
The dirty dishes
The bed

The light filtering in from the window
The blinds
The washing machine

The pile of comic books 

The photos

I saw it all as love
Love love love

And why stop there
And so in my minds eye right now

I go back to a viewing balcony and I see the whole ground and the whole earth as love
I see the whole night and the night sky as love
(And indeed the whole sky is made of love - why would it not be)
I see the modern art museum on the top of a hill on the plateau across the valley

And I see that it is made of love love love

I see the pylons that light up the sky

And I see that they are love 

Why stop there

In my kitchen now

The very steam is made of love
And my flatmate is made of love 

And the sound of the fan is made of love

And this very sofa I am sitting on is made of love and it holds me and supports me 

And this very blanket I am covered in - it supports me and it is made of love and it clothes me

And why stop there

I go back to my favourite place on earth 

And the best moments of my life - the ones when I am with my friends the wind farms back in Luxembourg

And I see that:
The wind farms are made of love
Except that there are no wind farms
And there is only love
Love made of love
Love is only made of love
Love is only love
A photo of Susanna a beautiful lady with long blonde hair sitting on her sofa





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