"The future looks bright and most importantly the future looks technical - And I mean that is all I ever wanted"

If you've made it this far, then this is my 999th blog post. The next one is a big one. I am so happy and grateful for what happened in the last 10 posts. Just in time for my 1000th post, I managed to fall back in love with software engineering again, find my passion, find some hope for the future and find a way to keep on going. This afternoon I did a meditation from my old meditation teacher - I don't attend his meetings or gatherings anymore. I can't explain why. One day he told me wordlessly to move on. The truth is you can build a dependency on or an attachment to your meditation teacher.

You can stop looking at the truth and start looking at the teacher instead. And so I left to look at the truth. 

I began to dance. I continued software engineering. Sometimes I feel lost. But how could I feel lost? When I need a lesson 

It arrives. Like the other day I saw my teacher's teacher talking about how you should imagine everything as made of love. And that this is a childish game. Except that it's not childish. It would only be childish to play it if it wasn't true. He said to play it whenever you remember

I remember it constantly. And it has changed my life. And maybe it is useful and more useful than a meditation subscription or a retreat costing 1-2,000 pounds - yeah, I went on a few of those. The truth is God is everywhere. God is everywhere we look. Everyone and everything we see is made of the pure light and essence of God. Therefore - everyone and everything are utterly equal. No-one is superior. No-one is inferior. It doesn't matter if we believe in God, It doesn't matter if we are enlightened. Who is there to be enlightened? It doesn't matter if we talk about love. We are all the same anyway 

We are all equally beautiful and perfect. Back in my meditation retreat days I used to feel guilty for how much I loved software engineering. And renewable energy. But my teacher would tell me that was perfect. Not everyone around me got it. If I was on one of these meditation retreats, why wasn't I a therapist? A meditation teacher? An artist? But those who got it got it. Software engineering and renewable energy is my way of expressing the love of God on this earth.

And dancing, and singing and so on.

We all call God different names (or don't call him anything). To disagree with another person's name of God is to start a war. My mum reminded me of this. The war's of the world were fought because people had different names for God. How can you argue with what God's name is with someone who is as much God's essence as you are? There is no-one more or less enlightened than you are. Get over it

The truth is that we are all beautiful creatures. Beautiful expressions of Being. And we are all love itself 

Om Namah Shivaya