Hey Kitty, now I make my money being pretty and witty

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Hey Kitty, now I make my money being pretty and witty

Hey, thank you for the lovely bouquet. There is something really special and beautiful that I am meant to contribute to the world. My divine destiny. It is delicate like a snowflake. That is why I keep on going with everything. This is why I never give up. Today one of my loveliest and most favouritest software engineering mentors 

Did something that no one has ever done for me before. We looked at the documentation together and figured out why I couldn’t read it. And then we came up with a strategy for me to read it. And then we said we’d come up with a strategy or a framework for how I approach all other documentation in the future. What a beautiful day. To be actually listened to like this

No one has ever taken the time to sit down with me and try to figure out why I can’t read things before 

I am a double master of science. I transitioned from customer services to product to engineering within much less than a year. I did this all while suffering from seizures. Major personal trauma. And a lot of undiagnosed neurodiversity. I did most of my degrees and my career while having hour long seizure episodes every day, often freezing or being terrified. Oftentimes seeing ambulances who didn’t believe me or tried to shame me into getting me to admit that I was faking (spoiler alert: I wasn’t. I’ve never faked a seizure in my life and spoiler alert I wouldn’t fake it late at night in the rain or on the freezing floors at night on the streets of Brighton if I was going to!). And I did my whole studies, my whole career like this, missing out on a lot of the hobbies and support networks that other people have due to what I was going through 

So does anyone believe that I am not hard working. No. So why would I lie about not being able to read the docs? Why would I be stupid? 

Nice that someone has finally believed me - not just believed me - but believed me enough to take it step by step with me and take me on the journey. 

And to listen to me for long enough while I tell them how I process new information
A full moon over back gardens

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