I was in my new house placing daydreams

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I was in my new house placing daydreams

I wrote a post a few days ago about getting really obsessed with my work and not putting myself first. It was a very personal post to share and I’m glad I did it. In between the countless people I had around me telling me how “lucky” I was at various points in my career was an unimaginable invisible amount of work. Not just working hard but working smart. Getting the most out of every available opportunity. Nothing can compare to when I got the late night train back from London with a principal engineer at a former company and quizzed him for 2 hours after a party in a cocktail bar and a pub. He was an amazing sport. As the train left London I asked “so what is software architecture?” I was very very new

A transition like mine would have not been possible without obsession. 

I did it very fast and if it doesn’t seem that way it’s because you don’t know how far away from software engineering my world was before I started this. Obsession was okay when things were going well. When things started to go badly I almost fell apart

All of this to say: I am not my job. So who is Susanna when I am not at work

I love the forest
I love the forest more than anything else in this world
I like to get lost in the forest
Just kidding I can’t get lost in a forest I navigate them effortlessly
I like Buddhism and I am doing a Buddhist meditation course in the coming months 
I love my family and I care about them more than anything
My English side of the family comes from the midlands and I love it up here
I used to be really bad with money but I have become so much better recently
I used to oversubscribe myself and sign up to too much 
I went on an invisible healing journey for 15 years no one will ever see
I am okay with that
I am just happy to be living the results
I like walking by the sea in Shoreham
My favourite song by Taylor Swift is probably Cassandra although I really love Seven

I like to play on pianos and sing at public stations

I love East Asian food and dream of learning to cook it better 
I am so much more than just my job
A dancer
A notebook lover
A tea drinker
I am not just Susanna who you see at work
I am so much more than my work
I refuse to give everything to work 
Arches in a cathedral and stained glass
Lincoln cathedral 
I am not my job. I work in a competitive environment and I am bowing out of the competition

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