The Only Song That Can Melt My Shallow Heart

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The Only Song That Can Melt My Shallow Heart

Something terrible has happened. I fear I have become a little bit dead inside. When did this happen???! This needs to be rectified immediately. I guess you can’t stay an innocent dreaming little teenager forever - or can you? I feel like I have become a jaded 30something (I am a 30something) and maybe it’s because I haven’t danced in a month

I will not stand for this nonsense

Only days ago I was throwing fake snowballs at everyone at my London office Christmas party and so it cannot be that bad and I ran a quiz for my team that made us laugh so hard other teams from the outside looked into our meeting room 

And couldn’t figure out what was going on

But still when did I learn to stop running and dancing in the forest? Tbf I haven’t even seen the forest since the summer… so sad 

When did I stop believing in young love, when did I stop believing in love at first sight

And most importantly of all when did I stop believing in magic and miracles? I had so many miracles this year
The biggest one of all being when I was randomly picked and hired to join my Frontend team

But anyway

When I hear the song Ordinary by Alex Warren

I can be a teenager

I still get shivers even after a whole year of this song. The fact that it didn’t get nominated for a Grammy proves they are a scam

And who cares

The people’s choice

Thank you 
Beautiful photo of the strand in London at dawn



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