Why I have new found hope for my learning in 2026 and why I think everything could get better

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Why I have new found hope for my learning in 2026 and why I think everything could get better

It has been incredibly hard for me from a learning perspective. Neurodiversity doesn’t quite do justice to describe the crazy level of uniqueness when it comes to my learning style and that can be very exhausting in this world. In fact after five years of working I’m only just beginning to breathe. Because work has been a lot harder than uni from a neurodivergent perspective - and uni has been an absolute nightmare. Basically if I am left to my own devices I can often make learning work for myself

But what happens when I am not left alone? What happens when I have to work with others? What happens when I have to try and conform to another standard? I have passed the level where I can learn anything from a coding course (obviously new syntax and new tricks but not real professional skills). This is of course a great and massive honour

But what do I do now? When learning real merge conflicts (not just simple stuff but massive cross repo stuff), when learning to write mock data (coding courses and bootcamps never covered this!), and when learning to debug Frontend tests a skill which is still relatively really new to me

Whatcha gonna do? Well the answer is diagrams

My wonderful manager - wonderful wonderful wonderful she is - has discovered my love for diagrams and now my whole universe has collapsed

Do you know the story of the naughty girl who used to run around and not sit still and be in trouble and someone once said “but she is a dancer!” And then she went on to become a successful dancer? I can’t learn and I can’t learn and I can’t learn but now I can learn and I can make diagrams and I can learn with diagrams

Maybe I was just meant to make beautiful diagrams

And now I can finally learn thank you

The wind farms are watching me with pride. And so I got a book today to learn more… ❤️‍🔥
A yellow book on study skills like speed reading and mind maps by Tony Buzan
It takes a colleague about 6 months to learn my learning style and that is if we are working very closely. A couple of unicorns pick it up immediately

Maybe because they are similar

But mostly even my most hard working and genius and talented colleagues take a long time to understand my brain 🧠  and I have been trying for 31 years 

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