After well over 2 years of battling I have found my focus

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After well over 2 years of battling I have found my focus 

If you have ever read even so much as one of my blog posts I want you to go out and have a drink on my behalf. I am 10000% serious. This is a breakthrough on this blog. And if you have watched me suffering... then I have suffered a lot. I WILL SAY IT 1000 TIMES. If I have to write 1000 identical blog posts. I will. WHAT IS MY MAIN FOCUS AT WORK
  1. Getting tickets from one side of the board to the other 
  2. Getting the code I write live 
  3. Getting users to use my code
I am writing this at 11 pm after a dance workshop. I will write this out 1000 times 

I don't care 

I know I have this accessibility focus. I know I am learning React. I have the most amazing technical mentor and he has taught me to read the docs

When I was 19 I had to battle for months to get an important identification number. When I finally got that thing I wrote it out so many times I COULD NEVER FORGET IT and I still know it perfectly 

It must be the same with these goals 

A spiritual looking image with purple shapes and a hand in a meditating shape

And here is an excerpt from a blog post I didn't publish (yep there are loads! more and more) about the technical docs:

"bro. Today I went to my mentor who is an absolute fricking genius and I said to him that I am stuck on some React learning. And what did he do? He made me read the React docs. I can’t get over the brilliance of this. Where did this genius get lost. For starters I am not that dumb. I know the docs are a thing. I was struggling to find a doc on the thing I’m learning

But then he just knew where to go. (If you’re reading this - hi!). He just knew where to go. We started on one react page. AND HE JUST KNEW WHERE TO GO FROM THERE. It was like he was taking me on some kind of magical mystery tour

It was like he was taking me to some new place that just had all the answers. How did he know? It was like he manifested them on the spot. Maybe he did. I can’t get over it

The brilliance of how he found all the answers. Or how much reading them helped me. Or how humbled I feel. I have been silly, so silly. How could I have been trying to get by without reading the docs? How could I have been trying to keep on going without a solid foundation? "

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