Ever Just As Sure As The Sun Will Rise

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Ever Just As Sure As The Sun Will Rise

We are in the darkest time of the year. The last few days have been tough. I don’t really have the answers or the solutions. I will say that early morning sunlight and exercise are supposed to be an amazing combination. 

Indeed when walking to dance class the other day I got hit by the sun and it touched something deep within me. I get really badly affected by the winter. I know this and it still hit me. Again the only solution I can think of is sunlight. And doing normal activities. Working. Dancing. I’ve been off work for a few days but I’ll be back soon. I have loads of dance classes lined up. And as soon as I’m sure I have no more flu I will try and integrate some early morning walks again. As there is nothing better for my mental health

I’ve been meditating loads but that is a fine balance. Perhaps you can’t do general meditation too much but I do a very specific kind and I did too much. Moderation is key here 

Tomorrow is a big reveal on the traitors and the first three episodes of the new season of beast games also drop. But I feel as if it’s time to come back to reality. I can’t quite pinpoint when I started feeling as tired as I am now. But I do know this
  • I want to keep meditating but only one or two iterations a day maximum three
  • I journal about it so it takes time too
  • It’s more about how much love you do it with than how many times you do it, better to do it once or twice with maximum love
  • I really miss the forest. Specifically the one back in Luxembourg. That is too far but I’m desperately trying to get out into some nature nearer to me
  • I have got loads of dance classes lined up and it’s important to keep on going. Lately it’s been harder to dance (it’s all improvised dance) but it comes and goes in waves
  • I really really want to get out for a morning walk every day even when I am going to the office
  • I am looking forward to getting back into work properly and doing my diagrams and working on my tests and mocks and seeing all of my lovely favourite people again
Ever just the same, ever a surprise, ever as before, ever just as sure

As the sun will rise

P.s. im really looking forward to a few things
  1. Longer dance workshop in March
  2. Little one end of Jan
  3. Trip with sister in March
  4. Amazing course online starting in March
  5. Going to see wicked in the cinemas if it’s still on
Thank you 
A train in the Swiss alps
Cos there is beauty in winter too and there is beauty in resting and I know I will get through this and I will be okay and I will be able to get back to the forest soon thanks 

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