Say It Right

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Say It Right

Feeling completely recovered I am ready to go back to work tomorrow. Ready is a strong word; everything is messy and disorganised at home and as always I have not solved the mystery of what gluten intolerant people who don’t eat gluten free bread either should pack to work for lunch. 
But I’m ready to work again. 

I came back and worked for one day on the 2nd (worked INTENSELY) but then I got sick. So now I am ready for the day to day of my job. This afternoon as I was feeling better I did some walking before and after doing a food shop. And I have to say doing some exercise in the fresh air just changed everything. My mental capacity for work. My readiness and willingness to work. My ability and my enthusiasm 

So my plan to survive my career is to make sure I walk outside every day. There are lots of beautiful spots on bus routes near me but the most beautiful place if all is right by my house down at the end of the world. So I have to get walking again.

I seem to have stopped having random seizures (I’m sure they were never random but the triggers were too subtle). But now it takes a really really obvious trigger for them to happen

But this is amazing - this means I can go outside and walk again and I don’t have to worry. I want you to know what this freedom 
Means to me
Treasure your freedom
TREASURE YOUR FREEDOM
I don’t want to hold on to this identity forever
But I will never NEVER NEVER take for granted the ability to just walk down the road never ever
Never ever ever ever ever 
Two horses on the downs
Right so it’s back to work tomorrow with my calendar with my diagrams but most of all with my ability to say no to people 

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