The Princess and the IDE

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The Princess and the IDE

Over 3 years and thousands of blog posts I have tried to tell a story. It is the story of a girl who went through a lot and lived with a really complicated illness 
And dealt with huge learning challenges at work. But it is more than that. It is the story of a girl who could feel the wind farms. I look at wind farms and they have a feeling. They feel a certain way to me. WIND FARMS ARE LITERALLY THE THING I LOVE THE MOST IN THE WORLLD. This is the story of a girl. Who overcame everything. Who did two masters degrees while collapsing almost every day (I saw 58 ambulances in my first masters year) and who worked every day for years while collapsing every day (thankfully that’s not the case anymore). Who was dealing with even bigger personal stuff in private. I am someone who so many people never saw a happy ending for. But I don’t care about all of that
I care about the way it feels when I see a wind farm
I care about the way that it feels when I see a pylon
I care about the fact that I stay resilient and never listen to anybody who tells me what I can’t do. Thank you
A view of Brighton from high up
And software engineering allowed me to redefine my story. It allowed me to rewrite my story. My manager many years ago insisted I learn how to code. And he never let me give up until I admitted to myself that I did want to do it professionally. 8 months before that I had said to him on a call

„You will never meet anybody who wants to be here more than me”
I don’t think I was wrong
Peace ✌️

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