"Things that only Carolina will ever know", part 2 - overcoming my React nervous breakdown

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"Things that only Carolina will ever know", part 2 - overcoming my React nervous breakdown 

Lana del Rey and Taylor Swift have more blog post titles named after them then you will ever know. So many of my blog post titles are Taylor and Lana quotes. I think that's beautiful. Two beautiful and strong female writers, who have been with me since I was 14 (Taylor) and 19 (Lana). I have grown up with these two beautiful ladies. 

And here I am. 

A woman with my own voice. A female on my own writing journey. How fitting that two of the greatest writers of all time should be with me on that journey. 

Anyway I calmed down after my react nervous breakdown. I went on miro and created a diagram 

I made a mind map of all the react things I have to learn still. It made me feel so much better. It didn’t seem so bad anymore. It made everything seem realistic and achievable and possible. I know it was naughty of me to work at 7 pm 

That might not sound bad but consider how often and how many years of my life I worked late and so much later than that and sometimes every night. So now I have strict boundaries for myself and working past six is breaking the rules. Never mind the fact that I just clicked a few buttons on a ticket on Jira at 10pm

A Christmas tree made up of lights outside of Charing Cross station, London
Anyway React diagram has been made 
Next up css typescript graphql and react
How did I live before these diagrams
I am so relieved
How did I live before I had them
They are my saving grace. They are my whole life
They have made work so much more enjoyable and accessible to me again 

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