The Most Healing Moment of my Life

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The Most Healing Moment of my Life

This evening I went to a dance class in London. There was a man and I couldn’t stop dancing with him. I usually prefer to dance alone but the energy was magnetic. I absolutely loved dancing with him. 
I couldn’t resist it. It was irresistible. After the class I was crawling over to my stuff and he told me he loved my dance. I couldn’t believe it when he told me it was his first class in this style
So he told me that he was a professional ballet dancer with English National Ballet - Eric Snyder, an award winning American ballet dancer 
It was the best moment of my life 
He said to me
“Dance is an essence and you have it. It’s an extension of you.” He also said to me “you’re so cool.” And he said to me “you’re so beautiful”. And I knew that he really meant it
He wasn’t just saying it 
He really meant it 
And look if I am beautiful enough for a dancer of the English National Ballet then I am beautiful enough for anyone 
A photo of Susanna looking beautiful
I have always wondered what the message of my 16 years of seizures was
And look I think it was just to tell me that I am beautiful 
I’ll take it 
I’ll also take being told I am an amazing dancer by one of the coolest dancers 
He told me that if I wanted to pursue any more structure form of dance I should do contemporary/modern 
Today was the most healing night of my life 🌹 🌹 
A photo of Susanna smelling a red rose
Rose from the shop in London Bridge cos I gotta look after the love of my life 
I want to keep on dancing 


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