See you in the dark, all eyes on you my magician

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See you in the dark, all eyes on you my magician

I woke up this morning and I feel better and clearer and more confident about my progression than ever before. The hardest part is just feeling like I’m not growing as a software engineer when I could be. But I feel like I have gotten a lot of clarity over the past few days or so. I am gonna have a few more chats with people or whatever but I feel like it’s quite clear. Apart from the two most obvious pieces of feedback that were around ticket speed and core react concepts (which I’m addressing; I have a react learning plan and I read the docs all the time and I also feel that, apart from what I’m about to discuss, trying to find more time during the day to prioritise tickets could be really helpful and beneficial - even really small gaps can make a big dent. And having more of a fighting attitude towards completing my tickets). Then 

There is one more big piece of feedback and it stings because it harks back to my backend days. But I guess if it was a problem there then it would still be a problem here now. The problem is that I don’t really know what it’s called. I have to work 10,000x harder just to work and progress and to be here. But I love software engineering
It’s a genuine passion
If it wasn’t I wouldn’t be here
Trust me I wouldn’t be here
But I will have some more chats with people
Meantime this week I am going to start reading one of my colleague’s PRs. 
A picture of a phoenix in a pretty floral office kitchen
What is this last area I need to address called
I can’t really explain it but I will talk to my two favourite mentors today thank you 

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